I know that fear.
The one that creeps in at 2am when you can't sleep. When you think about diabetes. Heart disease. High blood pressure. All the things that run in your family. All the things you've watched destroy the people you love.
The one when your child gets winded walking up the stairs. When they can't keep up with other kids on the playground. When they're breathing heavy after doing almost nothing.
Your baby. Already on track for a lifetime of health problems.
I lived in that fear every single day with my son Lucas.
Watching the numbers on the scale climb. Watching his belly grow. Watching him get tired from things that shouldn't make a child tired.
But it wasn't just the health fears eating me alive.
It was watching him come home from school and go straight to his room. Watching him stop asking if friends could come over because no one said yes anymore. Kids called him names I won't repeat here. They picked him last for every team. One day he came home with his lunch still in his backpack.
The confident little boy who used to run into school excited had disappeared. In his place was a child who flinched when other kids looked at him. Who stopped raising his hand in class. Who asked me once, quietly, if he could be homeschooled.
Then came the appointment that broke me.
The doctor said words I'll never forget: "His blood sugar levels are concerning. If this continues, we're looking at pre-diabetes by middle school."
Pre-diabetes. He was nine years old.
My grandfather lost his leg to diabetes. My aunt is on dialysis. I've watched this disease destroy my family for three generations.
And now it was coming for my son.